The mid December in 2021, finally it is the time to say goodbye to Taiwan. (But actually the timing I am writing this post, it is almost about the time to go back to Taiwan haha.) Since August after my mom left, I was alone in Taiwan until December. I was indeed quite not used to it when my mom just left. But I found I quite enjoyed my life alone in Taiwan. I have freedom, I can arrange my own life without worrying interfering other people. That was the time when I had a deeper feeling that I don’t want to find a new date again. Being alone is way too relaxing and free~

After my dad finished quarantine, we had a short 1 week gathering together. I was quite stressed-out at that time though, because I had to worry about taking care of him while preparing my own life. Everything changed when I started to live with another person. For example, I cooked a lot of dinner, but he only ate once, there were many left over, I wanted to pack it as my bento, but we dined out for lunch again. I wanted to wake up and prepared breakfast for him. He said no need, but he bought breakfast on his way to work. I felt bad. Every night I stayed in the kitchen until late, because I wanted to prepare my meal the next day too. Well, I realized I didn’t know how to live with another person.

But only one week, and then I left. I kind of insisted on going to Vietnam as soon as possible though, because I knew this will happen. Now it is March already and my sister and my dad are coming to Vietnam soon. I will definitely has the same feeling again, my life will be changed again. Although I am going back to Taiwan soon, because our family went back on traveling often, it means I will have less time alone. Hmmmm, how should I deal with it? I am still not sure. But we will see. Hope I can find my own pace again.